"I wish nothing but the best for you"

"Someone Like You" [Taken from the lyrics of the song by Adele "Someone Like You"]

I heard that you're settled down.

That you found a girl and your married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?

It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,

That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies.

Only yesterday was the time of our lives.

We were born and raised in a summery haze.

Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,

That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.

Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

[END]

There isn't any song lyrics or poems that could describe how i feel, but i was surprised at how close this song does and would in the future.

I wish I can say to both of us that i'm over you. That I'm ready to welcome you back in my life as my best friend again. But after a year of battling my own feelings and living my life without you, and finding myself still standing at the same spot, I realized some things that are more important than the battle.

No one knows the future. After eight years it starts to occur to me that I'd probably never be over you. That even if I find someone else who thinks I'm deserving, I'd probably still not be able to give him my heart completely as I've given it to you. There is no harm in hoping though. So yeah, as impossible as it may sound to me right now to stop loving you the way i've been, I still hope it'll come true.

More than that, I hope you read this. You know who you are. Be certain that this is for you. I know that I promised both of us (more to myself) not to approach you until my heart's completely changed. If you consider this as breaking a promise then I am truly sorry. But this might be my only chance to tell you, suppose I could never be your friend ever again. So if you could, please look at it as a one-way letter. For I'll only write the things that you must know and I do not at all expect any response from you.

If the day never comes when I can finally say I'm over you and I'd be happy to just be your friend, I am sorry. I'm sorry I can't keep my promise. I'm sorry I can't suppress my feelings while befriending you. I'm so sorry. I wish I'm stronger than this, I really am. I wish I could ignore my feelings and stayed with you as a friend. Guess I am that selfish. I'm sorry to have to disappoint you. Of course I know you'll be alright without me, you never needed me and you never will. For what it's worth I just want to apologize for failing our friendship. I want you to know I am blessed. Looking back at everything, there isn't any moment with you I did not cherish. 

I've got a feeling you've found someone. Doesn't matter if it's true or not, it's just a feeling. All I want to say is that if it's true and there's any fear of hurting me in you to express your feelings to her or to the world about her, don't be. I'm not gonna lie and say i'm not gonna be affected by it, but what i'd feel is not and should never be your problem. We are free. You are free. 

I'm holding on to the hope of our friendship. But if God shall not grant what I hope, then I hope you'd find this letter and accept my apology.